....

if only i didn't postponed to take the cousin out to yesterday..
or
if only i let him stayed in longer during lunch hour..
or
if i let him sleep inside...
or
if i stop dilly dallying on doing the laundry and ended up rushing..
or
if only i walked out of the house using the front door..
or
if only i used the vios instead of the Peugeot..
or
if i checked on him first before going..


we would not lost the most lovable cat that we've ever had..
and i wish that i just closed my eyes when i saw him struggle and die in just few seconds..
they said it's faith..
but it feels the biggest regret that i've ever had..

big fat him.. ='(

when he first met..